Sobbing

Feeling down lately,
hate this insanity,
it's because this one particular person,
so-called future soulmate! *sigh*
I know I shouldn't be anxious
but I know, sometimes, my intuition is perfectly right,
I have been through this enigma before
when my heart say it,
although thousand friends console me the other way
in the end what my heart had felt right away
is absolutely TRUE!
what am I going to do....?*sob*
but is he really cheating on me?
is it true he has somebody there?
is the distance to blame?
or the attitude?
or the other woman?
or him?
or me???
this is really NOT him....!
how could he ignore me without a line like this?
how does he go through the whole day/weekdays/weekends without me?
God, is it really true?
Really, really true?
Really, really, really is true???